Today, as I log back in, I have to admit this post won’t be about sex per se.
I’ve been thinking of a bunch of things… I get so many views, but few comments, shares, or followers. I wonder if it is lack of content. If I updated more regular, would I get more? Or is it just the desire not to be associated with some form of explicit or sexual content, at least that others can see? Shame and fear of discovery? Or just not interested and did a one-read and move on? Within the last 19 days, someone googled my blog by name, so I wonder.
Also pondering what to do with myself when I am so freaking horny, but hubby is away. He is currently on a 4-day weekend business trip, and I have been horny as all hell thus far. Due to packing and getting ready, and a few social events in the days before, not much sex happened before he left. Now the want is worse, and he doesn’t come back until evening tomorrow. I am no good at orgasmic masturbation, and my toys are in dire need of upgrade (we don’t toy shop often, so we ‘love’ them until they start to wear out). I know, you probably don’t care and just want me to get to the juicy sexy stuff.
Speaking of toys, I have been peeking around at some new ones to purchase. I am disappointed that my local sex shop (which is kinda small) doesn’t offer everything that has caught my eye. I have been cruising Babeland’s website this evening (also featured here), and this gem definitely piqued my interest.
It is the OhMiBod Bluemotion remote-controlled pantyvibe. (Available at Babeland, and at the OhMiBod official site, among other places.) What really interests me is the capacity to be controlled by an app, and from miles away (they boast it is usable across the US). That could be fun. I would love to test it out, especially when my husband is away on business trips. It doesn’t happen often, but this curvy, horny NDN prefers to be able to play together if he does go on one. Sometimes all I need is his presence and encouraging excitement while I masturbate to help me get close, but usually need help to get up over that orgasmic edge. My hands tend to stop moving when it gets too intense, hence not being good at making myself orgasm. Oh, and no wearing it at work, methinks.
Fucking with Friends?
So, through exploring my imagination, various toys and moods, and the internet world of pornography, I have found that I am very interested in the idea of gang-bang. Now, it doesn’t need to be violent, which the phrase tends to lead people to think. I just mean group sex. Orgies, if that is the proper term. Ooh, I like a rough fuck sometimes, though. But, strictly speaking, my rule is that sex must all be consensual and stop when one of us honestly says stop. (Playfully or Roleplaying saying ‘stop’ or ‘no’ doesn’t count, it has to be an honest ‘no more’ kind of thing. Or our safeword, which makes us both laugh so much we just have to stop.)
With that thought aside, I have learned that, in the right conditions, I enjoy DP. I even enjoy all three of my holes stimulated at the same time (usually the nether two by toys and my mouth with his cock). I enjoy being fucked hard. I enjoy being tied up, clamped, and having him in control (light BDSM). I can enjoy gentle strikes/slaps (though to my face tends to make me cry). I also enjoy being in control of him and doing what I want to his eager and waiting body. And, sometimes, I just want a simple and sweet sex experience. It all depends on my particular mood.
I like the romanticized idea, the portrayed fun, but… I don’t know that I can. I think about it and get anxious about losing my hubby, or that I am not being faithful. The logistics of sharing and who goes where… ugh. I worry about whether the new person(s) would like my body, which I am usually fine with and my husband loves despite my rolls and curves. I wonder if I will like their body, the smell of them, the taste of them… these imaginary people make me anxious, so I doubt this would ever really happen. But… still there are those moods of wanting all of my holes filled. Maybe having my tits fucked while I take another in my mouth and DP happens down below. The idea, even as I type, gets me wet. But those anxieties stop me. Maybe I will buy a fuckmachine….
Stay tuned. Next may be a sexcapade! ;-*